Well I have been thinking alot the past few weeks. Just the usual God, relationships, beliefs, family, friends, choices, and life basically. If I could just express the thought I was thinking during work. How my mind races and I just can't shake the thoughts. Have you ever had that? A thought that you can't shake.. Well the Lord know s that I have, and I am learning to trust in Him. Who is that? The King Jesus that who. For the fact that only a few people may read this I will be real with you. Its one thing to just express what I have been thinking or whatever. I want to be real and I know who I am. Real, right here and right now. A young man learning how to trust in the Lord in this big world. I say the word trust as if I don't know what it means. I know what it means on the real, but I have trust issues, and I know I am not the only one. I have trusted before and have been used and abuse. (a little exaggeration, but you get my drift) and to be honest it is hard for me to trust anybody. It says in the word to "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, and in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will direct thy path." That verse has been speaking to my heart the past few weeks which is really cool.
But anywayz let my heart express it self. On the real I want to talk about the heart. For one, I just receive the revelation that my heart can sing. Not just sing but literally sing. Oh only if I could just have my heart express itself to its fullest. Like you know to have the Holy Spirit move your heart in such a way that not even you could understand. Talk about Waking the Dead. That is the real you know. Now let me be real for you again. Now back to the heart, mind, body, spirit, and soul. I want to talk about the heart. It seem or have notice that there is a battle for the heart. Which side is going to win. (All that spiritual warfare stuff I think you already know about) Maybe its just me and I finally able to be granted the grace to understand and discern the thoughts of my flesh and the spirits. On the real it might be funny to some but I been or am being attacked by this spirit that is trying to give me some type of identity. Tell me who I am and this is my past and this is what I did yadda yadda yadda. Need I go on. But its really scary I should say. I am learning how to trust in the identity the Lord has called me to or even if he has called me to this type of living. How to live by the spirit. I have really been praying and meditation on the Ephesians 1:16-18. If you don't know the verses look it up. But like I said my heart alive and awake. Its like there is stuff my heart is crying out for things that I just can't explain. There are so many things that are going on in my head in my heart in my soul and spirit I just can not express it or put it in words. I wish I could and really tell you all how I think and feel towards situations or things or believe but its hard for me at night to express things such as that. Maybe I need to write on a note pad throughout the day. I think that would help. Any way there will be more so stay tuned to those the very few that read.
To be Continued