Well its twelve oclock at night and I am now just starting to blog. And I have been on my cpu since nine thirty. Talk about zoning out and listening to music. To those few souls out there reading this I love music. Need I stress that about me. If it wasn't for music I probably would be considered insane. Excuse me as I laugh at that statement. I sometimes think that if you did not know, but let me carrying you out of that pointless topic into another subject. Had a very interesting day today especially at work. It was just me and my manager there and he was chatting away with me about such and such and god and choices. Very interesting stuff if I might say. Whateva. Have you ever felt as if you haven't given everything to God, but your spirit and heart just wants to crys out and give Him everything? I say your spirit, as if I am asking you, and your really listening. I bet very few people are, it doesn't bother me one bit though. The last week, this morning, yesterday my heart, my spirit, my mind have been crying out to God. Its been really hard especially at this time in my life, or should I say His life.. I will come back to that topic later if your hear listening to your brain read this. I not only want you to just read this but feel it in your heart my cry. Its not my cry but your also. You have the same Holy Spirit that I have that was in Jesus Christ. The agony the moaning of my thoughts, my heart, my spirit all day. I really believe there is a key that inside me that i need to release. I often refer to the Key of See a song that I listen to alot. Maybe I am just waiting to die. Hopefully you know what I am talking about and I hope you do. A certain death that us as believe expirence or come to I should say. But back to the situation at hand. I know people have there own situation and all but can i ask you does your whole being cry out in such a desperate way? Ha! I am trying to find a balance. Maybe I am full of it but I really don't care. All I know is that how I used to live that lifestyle, draws me back to the Lord. But what do I know.
I have been thinking about talking about identity, and sharing some stuff about the Christ life I have had some revelation on, but I just don't have the words to express. So what am I suppose to do, I just need you to bare with me for a little bit. Not to long I just have to get some things off my chest. So......